hello! it's been quite a while, hasn't it. i just peeked at the .xml for my rss feed, and i've gone over half a year now without updates.

mostly… i have not felt much motivation to work on the kind of art i would be posting here. truth be told, i really underestimated the impact that cohost had on my 18+ work.

as time has gone on, i've let myself process my feelings and move on from cohost in the ways that i can. after ending 2024 and starting 2025 on a very difficult note, i've tried my best to pick myself back up. regain some creative momentum. try to focus on building bonds in smaller communities. and so on.

however, my motivation to draw 18+ work… well, it has remained dormant. i haven't felt comfortable posting the sketches i've done. and i feel adrift without the sense of community i once had. on cohost, it was easier for me to maintain the distant, "artist presenting their work at a gallery and occasionally chatting with guests" dynamic that i prefer.

my desires have been leading me elsewhere. i have been exploring traditional art mediums, and just drawing whatever comes to mind. it's been freeing. i think i put a lot of pressure on myself to perform "consistently" and serve an imaginary audience. if you'd like to see what i've been up to lately, i have a gallery site that is quite comprehensive. and a blog i've been posting to over the past several months.

also: i'm discontinuing my prints featuring artistic nudity by the end of May 2025. that's this month. they're currently listed at a lower price than my other prints. if you would like to pick them up, now is the time to do so. https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/platinumtulip/

my reason… i just don't feel comfortable mixing my 18+ work with my other art. it's something that i just prefer to keep separate. personal feelings, i suppose.

i don't know what the future holds - maybe i will feel a spark of inspiration and drive to draw lingerie illustrations again out of nowhere. knowing me, this is not unlikely. but for many months now, my heart has felt heavy and uneasy when i think about exploring that side of my work. i don't know what to make of that. i haven't known what to make of it for a long time.

if you want to leave a comment or anything: i have a guestbook open on my website.

take care